While I was out

I've got some great friends. Really. They all were so kind and concerned about my state.

While I was sleeping off the bruises and the pain on Sunday, my friend called up drummer boy and agreed to go out with him and his female friend from the UK who is here for five days.

I won't go into the details or the reasons for it. But my friend and his friend decided that it was their responsibility to get drummer boy to make a move.

I don't know what was said or not said. I just know that I got a text message at 1 am in the morning Sunday night that woke me up and it said

"He absolutely loves but you are too conservative for him"

I was too tired to process any of that.

I called my friend the next morning undecided if I should be upset with her talking to his friend and trying to close the deal for me or with the content of the text message.

She tried to explain it, telling me that I was a prude and too conservative for him but he absolutely loved me to bits and thought I was great.

His friend apparently said that he had gone soft.

I said to her but I specifically asked that you don't talk to him about it. I appreciate her trying to protect me and that I may be a little bit of an old fashioned girl but seriously I am not that precious or a princess.

She says she wasn't trying to protect me but that I can be clueless sometimes. I said me? Everybody for the past 3 months has been trying to push me on to him telling me he likes me. Then all of you Saturday night try to tell me that I should make my move when I told all of you that I wouldn't and couldn't and that he was avoiding me. All of you said to me that he was into me.

She said "He does love you, you're just too conservative"

I said "And you're all co-authors of the book on kink right? and I'm the little princess that is a prude"

She says "You are a prude princess. You're prudence mcprude"

I said "Whatever. Don't know when it became so popular to enjoy frequency so much"

I was pretty angry with my friend and his friend but what could I do? It wasn't like I could fix it.

He then sent me a text message telling me he'd heard about my car crash and asking if I was ok

I said I was just banged up and bruised but barbie lives to fight another day

To which he said "Good to hear. I've never seen a crash test barbie before :D"

I said "Screw you. As if the only thing missing from your life was seeing a crash test barbie. I'll tell you what you've seen, you've seen the ultimate barbie"

He said "You are truely wonderbarbie. I assume copious amounts of chocolate are required"

As the day went on, I just couldn't pinpoint where it was that I let my friend think it was ok for her to go talk to him or his friend. I appreciate it but I'm definitely dealing with my own crap from now on. The weird thing is I said don't talk to him about it. Its like she found the loophole and talked to his friend about it and that to her was ok. Its my fault though, if I had have the guts I claimed I did I would have talked to him myself and not let it go on like this instead of relying on a funny prank to get my point across. But what can I say? I'm just funny and silly like that.

When I asked her if she had told him I liked him she said that she and the friend had told him to talk to me so that I wouldn't embarrasse myself.

When she told me that it was all I could do not to snap at her with something nasty but I just said " well thanks, I'm going to talk to him tomorrow when I see him." She says "sweety don't you'll only embarrass yourself."

I said "Well now you and his friend already took care of that for me and basically paved the way for this conversation and I won't make a big deal out this. I'll go with my heart. I won't be embarrassing myself. I should have taken care of this my way to begin with."

So I talked to him this morning.

I sent him a text saying

"Don't leave for the day before you come by to see me. If you do I will turn into ninja barbie with a kickboxing twist and I swear I will kick your ass. Needless to say I am not pleasant or precious today."

About two hours later he shows up.

I said to him, "I don't like that my friend talked to his friend and that they talked to him. I also told him that for the past 3 months everyone has been pushing me on to him and trying to tell me he likes me and that I should give it a chance. I didn't. I figured keep it innocent and sweet. But also because even if I did like you I need to know that you put some effort forward. I love being silly around you and I love you to bits. But I am pissed off because you all talked about it and forgot about me.

I'm not just this precious princess and I can take care of my own stuff. At this point he laughs "You're not a princess? Noooooooo"

"Roll my eyes"

"There are layers to me that no one knows about. What my friend did and how she handled it is ok but I can't stand that she talked to you and your firned about it. Friends want to protect you but I was not very comfortable with all of it and needless to say you were avoiding me because of it on Saturday. I tried to show them that but they wouldn't have any of it. They all said, he's really shy. But what is really getting to me is that, you got this half ass picture about how I like you when the reality is everybody even X and Y of your friends were telling me to just grab you and make a move because they all thought you liked me. I kept saying you weren't there and you weren't there. They insisted that you were just too shy around girls you liked. That you talked about me non-stop and that you loved me. Which is awesome. I get it. You love me. I love you alot too. Its who you are. And after all of this has happened I realize that if I really wanted it like that I would know what to do and I wouldn't have given you much of a choice about it.

One of the things or the one thing I like the most about you is that I thought you saw me for all of me not just the little tiny parts. And I love every exchange we've had. Very rarely do you meet someone that you know will be a great addition to your life and the only other person that sees me for all of me like I thought you did was my friend K that you met a few months ago.

In any case, I'm sorry to have had this happen. I don't regret the pranks. they were hillarious and it was meant to put a smile on your face which it did.

He says " It did. I was absolutely chuffed. I loved it. Fear not all is well."

Exchange hugs.

That's it.

:)

I won't go on any further about how I feel. I'm taking it easy again.

Time to go back to painting my nails. One minute people tell me I'm intimidating and the next they're telling me I'm a princess and so precious.

Its all bullshit and I have never been anything but my self the entire time. I guess people need to define others no matter what.

Round 1 over. KO for both of us (me and drummer boy) I guess.

At least now I can tell him that his band's songs are absolute crap and I won't feel bad about hurting his feelings. Then again I'm not too sure that he's invested in them.

Thanks you guys.